How Tarot Gave Me Hope and Helped Me Shift Out of Emptiness, Isolation, and Depression

Philippines 2019

I really struggled transitioning from college into the “real world.”Financial stress, living alone, working lots of hours and having to figure everything out on my own. 

The story I kept telling myself was:  “I don’t have family nearby. My closest friends moved back home. I have no one.”

At the same time, I was trying to move on from a breakup.My grandmother in the Philippines had just passed.There was drama at work and it was all directed at me. I was feeling so overwhelmed with everything. 

And the truth is? That was just the latest challenge. Years before this, I was already living in survival mode. In Middle and High School, I felt like I was being trained for hunger games to survive. I was purposely put in situations by a parent that forced me to grow up fast, find resources, and figure everything out on my own. I was trained to be independent and survive, not thrive. I learned to shut down my emotions and focus on accomplishments.  (This is a whole other story.)

By the time college ended, my soul was really tired of constantly problem solving, being creative about how I was going to survive. I just didn’t want to be here anymore. My energy was low, I was isolated and all I did was work. I felt really empty and nothing in my life was exciting, there was nothing I looked forward to. 

Every time I told my family or friends I was depressed, they kind of just shrugged it off. Some told me to talk to someone, but my energy was so low that talking to someone would just drain me. I just felt like people really couldn’t understand what I was going through. I gave up trying to explain how I was feeling and kept everything to myself. 

The Beginning of a Shift

One day, my sister randomly told me to check out a “Pick a Card” reading on YouTube. Surprisingly, the pile I picked seemed to resonate with my current struggles that I kept watching more videos as the days, weeks went on. I also had a friend who started getting into the readings too. We both felt drawn to buying our own deck of cards and started learning how to read them. 

When I did readings for myself, I felt like the Universe was listening to me, guiding me, giving me hope to keep going. The more I got curious and learned how to read, other spiritual information started popping up like angel numbers and synchronicities. 

I realized that I was feeling empty in my life because I was lacking purpose and I wanted to know who I really am deep down. 

🌑 I shifted from depression and hopelessness…

So this led me to my journey of self discovery which helped me shift my energy to “emptiness, hopelessness, and depression” to “curiosity and motivation” 

When I found the first piece of my purpose, I realized that I was on the wrong career path. No wonder I felt drained for years—I was trying to force something to work that wasn’t aligned anymore.

 When I got clarity on my next step, my energy came back. I felt excited to move toward something that felt aligned. 

That moment—when I started choosing my path from soul alignment— was the start of my Spiritual Awakening.

And it all started with a deck of cards, a whisper of hope, and the quiet decision to try something different.

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Resources for You ✨

If any part of my story feels familiar

If you’ve been feeling lost, numb, or quietly wondering “Is this it?”, know that you’re not alone. 

That whisper you’ve been hearing? It’s not random. 

It’s your soul, asking for something more.

Below, you’ll find the exact tools I wish I had back then— mirror portals I’ve created for others like me who are ready to shift.

When you’re ready, choose the one that speaks to your now:

🕯️ In the Darkness Journal – For the soul navigating shadow, seeking light 

🪞 Ikigai Free Template – A gentle starting point to explore what truly fulfills you 

✨ Moodii AI Companion  – A comforting guide when you need reflection, clarity, or encouragement

🔮 Intuitive Readings – When you’re ready to receive guidance from within and beyond